Adventure Over Stability

For me, 2022 was the year that shook things up. Events unfolded that made me realize that the world isn't as stable as I thought. On one hand, not much has changed for me personally, and I'm thankful for that. I didn't have to hide in bunkers or anything of that sort. But psychologically these times were tough. For the first time in my life, the world felt like it was about to crack. If the world isn't stable, what is? Out of panic, I decided to pack my things and go somewhere else, abroad. And in that I found peace: when you're on the move and you're seeing new places and new people constantly, the panic fades away. Not only that, but I did stop to care about spendings that much. Looking back, it was liberating. And I didn't regret any of the money spent. I regret a little bit wasting a lot of money traveling to a place I didn't enjoy, but still I don't regret it that much. After all, I've gained valuable information: which cultures and climates I do like and why. If the world isn't stable, does money even matter? If money doesn't matter, what does? If you don't know what's going to happen, you might as well do something. As the time passed, I've calmed down. And started falling back into old habits. Now I still travel, but not constantly - I mostly live in one city. I still travel, but plan with scrutiny and dread over money, even pennies. Suddenly money matters again for some unexplained reason. Well, I do understand why we care about money, but I don't understand how that transition happened and why. We tend to fall back to our default options if everything is stable. It seems change and stress may mobilize and revitalize us, what a paradox that is... And I don't travel as much again. And not having much fun again. I can't shake the feeling that there was something special about constantly moving. Traveling, meeting new people, exploring different cultures — it's an adventure that keeps life exciting. Even though I'm no longer moving around as much, I still believe that this way of living has immense value. It's clear that life is unpredictable, it's not the first shake-up, it won't be the last. Still, after some time adventure feels far more meaningful than staying put and stressing over savings. Travel, meet with friends and not care about wasting money. It was a happy period of my life and I don't regret it. Far from it - I want to repeat it. Without the shake-ups, I hope. If the situation got unstable again, I wouldn't care about pennies. We might as well stay in one place for 5 years, time goes by, we don't even notice it. Traveling, meeting friends and new people is better than not doing it at all. But I still think that I miss out on constant action and adventure, constantly meeting new people and seeing new places. It seems to me that nomad lifestyle is valuable and worth pursuing.